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traveling/my pessimism


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thursday will be our final trip out to the highest security prison exactly where i have had sociology class twice a week this semester
we find out within the facility next to inmates about theories of deviance and criminology
i have grown near to a single inmate in distinct
right now when a guard was sitting in on the class providing her viewpoint of punishment as a implies of rehabilitation which was totally uncalled and unasked for
he turned to me and muttered
she has no notion exactly where men and women like me are coming from

and i know he’s right
those prisons are in the middle of goddamn nowhere
run by individuals in rural places with no capacity, with no comprehension
whose exposure to crime and what is deemed crime is completely various from where most of the men and women within these facilities are from

the guard concerns my class presentation, states that she believes inmates benefit to a certain degree, and that if offered with far more sources would advantage entirely, from the prison technique and part of my point is that it doesn’t because they just finish up returning in alarming rates anyway
it is all i can do to tighten my lips and not say something in return, but then i think twice and comprehend
this is my chance to actually say something, to say fuck that to individuals like that in a formal and organized setting
men and women in power, like you
men and women in energy, like me
and i don’t forget the conference, i realize
i am white
consequently
i have the guilt of white privilege
but simply because i am white
i also have the agency
to do something about this
so nowadays
i mentioned, please
assume about the system, mam,
feel about absolutely everyone you know who has ever smoked a thing as fundamental as marijuana
do you believe that they need to be &quotfixed&quot
do you think they need to be fixed?
she appears at me with a strange look and says possession and revenue are two distinct things
and i beg to differ, truly
i appear at her with a unhappy encounter
effectively, i tried

i have been so sad recently about this class
about one man or woman in it in distinct
he breaks my heart everytime he talks to me, a minor
he says as quickly as he gets out of jail he will just wind up back in it since
&quotthat is all there is for someone like me.&quot
&quoti can not do anything at all else but what i did to get me in here.&quot
&quotdrugs and me just go together. i can not avoid marketing it, there is absolutely nothing else for me to do.&quot
&quoti cannot do this.&quot
&quoti’m so dumb at times, man, i can’t comprehend this shit.&quot
i referred to as my mom to talk to her about him last week
i just cried and cried about his comprehensive lack of self respect
his complete disregard for his personal intellect
his full absence of enthusiasm

i get so depressed when we leave the facility each and every time
due to the fact i am strolling outside
and i get to see the gigantic sky
and there are flowers all over the place when i go outdoors
i get to go outside
i get to overlook about jail yet again right up until thursday
and they devote every single
fucking
second
there

they are the identical as me
i know there is practically nothing i can actually do at this point to adjust the program and you have to acquire into it a minor bit in order to alter it but it just crushes me with the potency of the truth, the implications of the truth

i get so depressed every time we leave
because i get to leave
every single tuesday and thursday i come and i go
and they remain in the identical developing
in the middle of nowhere
with no get in touch with to people that they love
and they just continue to exist

i do not know if i have it in me
i do not know if i have the capacity to understand everything that sociology teaches
about all the shit that is so, so fucked up
and nevertheless think in satisfied issues
still uncover happiness in issues, in anything
i do not know if i am robust sufficient
due to the fact i can manage it in a common classroom
but i cannot handle it in action, this is manifested in the simple fact that i get terribly depressed each and every tuesday and thursday when we leave
i think that i am too sensitive for sociology
i want a thing with significantly less feeling simply because i just don’t know if i can deal with it in the genuine world
due to the fact when i’m confronted with one thing as ineffably unhappy as what i am exposed to
i am amazed at how i truly feel like i am the only a single in my class affected to the degree that i am
i never know if i can manage this

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